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Got Used and thrown away

Depression, Mental agony, Emotional Stress, Despair, Restlessness, Drastic drop in performance, severe loss in creativity and coolness, these are the things I got from loving you sincerely and giving you too many chances which you didnt deserve. You didnt hurt my heart and lie just once, but infinite number of times, it would be extremely shameful for me if I list them all down, I never should have got back to you normal after you said that you chose someone over me as if I am an apple or orange to choose. I am a human and I have life for your information.

You are a girl and so you may get hit by lot of boys, but keep that to yourself and show some respect for those who love you despite how many times you hurt them. Because I had only 2 friends among the lot of 9 and one betrayed me and ratted me out, other choose someone over me and befriended with my sworn enemy, with whom too I tried to be nice just because of her.

But she doesnt care only, cant you just see it, every time you have to ask and confirm? Don’t you have brain and eyes for yourself. If she really cares about you, there are simple methods to show it, you were so foolish and put yourself and your energy and time in line of her just without thinking about consequences and how much she cared about me.

I tried to learn a language I hate for her. Tried to be nice with people who repeatedly hurt me, betrayed me. I even said some very secretive details about me to her, repeatedly tried to find reason with her, but all I got in return is NOTHING. Absolutely nothing. Amazing isnt it.

She says something, means something else and does something totally different. I ve never used to these kinda behavior, Its a good lesson to learn after all. Earlier I had a good self respect about myself, I mortgaged it entirely for you and tried to understand you and even when you hurt me and were angry for no reason, I just cared about you, like a dog I came with you wherever you asked me to, talked with people and searched for answers . .

Stop being a hypocrite and get a life and don’t use people, because what you sow, what you reap. .


War Flower

The first job always offers exciting and equally some weird OMG, WTF moments. When the mix is in right proportion (Spending too extensive or rather intensive 😛 😀 training phase, has taken its toll on me ) and if you are bold and brave enough to accept the sudden change and move along with it, well congratulations, Welcome to corporate world, your rat race is yet to begin, make yourself accustomed to the new principles and new people and start on,.

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Well, if you are one of the very few who didn’t explore the people and the world around you enough, this new environment, people, their behavior and their approach would put you in so much mental and emotional agony,.make you feel all alone like in an island, like if you are made to float free in space. Hope will be the only one left. How long you persist and hold on to it and CHANGE THINGS AND MAKE THINGS GO YOUR WAY is up to you and only you.


Because as history has taught us, Change is usually brought by an individual who had the will and courage to stand by the values and TRUTH. But the main prerequisite for the ONE who wishes to bring the change is to be right and ideal. Most importantly the clarity and the values that one holds on to. .

Some times the same values and principles may be more of a liability and stop you from moving ahead with your life, may even eat your inside out. Implode you,. Living becomes extremely difficult then. . .


Cutting the crap, Well,  like all I had a totally different expectation from my first job and obviously wanted to learn a lot and become somebody important in the company. . And the experience and the people I ve met so far is a great mix of REAL world, which Rocky Balboa perfectly put it as CRUEL and ruthless. . But that’s the way the world is right?

At first I thought, I ll get used to it and it would be a joyous journey like college one, where though I barely had very few close friends, yet I never felt alone. . Whereas here its quite different. .as it goes, day by day, week by week, my interest towards the subject is waning steadily and its mind wrecking and heart crushing sometimes. . People whom you care the most and trust your secrets with ratting on you and not giving a damn about you and being busy when you are literally brain fcked I thought were the stuffs for movies,.


But seeing it and feeling it in real time, for the first time is somewhat extremely painful and difficult to endure. . But there are some people who are extremely interesting, knowledgeable who go out of their way and job to help and teach the concepts, to whom I owe a great respect and I hope to become one like them in the years to come. .

Coming to the brighter side, instead of focusing and lamenting on how things could have turned out, how people should have cared, how good it would have been, if it had been that. . and so on. .


Its wise and good to focus on building a new world for myself, with the same values and principles with some up gradations in such a way I can adapt. Survival of the fittest I ve heard, But I guess here it takes more that just fitness to survive. .


Anyway, following religion sincerely always has its advantages. . I am a staunch believer of a saying,

God may always test his children, but he never abandons and hurts them like worldly people. .He will ultimately save them and nurture them dearly. .

Ending it on a positive note, Sincere efforts never fail, so I hope I get out of this stronger. .

Change is the only thing constant in the world isn’t it. .

P.S: Embrace yourself More blogs are coming. 🙂

Ironic India

The tagline used to attract tourists is Incredible India, but ironically I wonder what is really incredible in India. Being an Indian I shouldn’t sound so cruel of my own country but the momentary despair makes me to use such strong words. Of course there are a million things and more importantly generous, lovely people who are truly incredible. But its so sad they are ruled by irresponsible, insensitive and totally unjust government.


Well it may sound usual to most, because blogging has become a common way to vent the anger  but there is a deep rooted issue, which is affecting the lives of poor millions living in my country. I truly feel very sorry and sad for them.  Every country has its issues and people fighting for justice. After some years or so, it gets solved or a civil war begins.

But India, with its diverse Linguistic population of 1.2 billion, divided into 28 states is totally a different story. Its people are different, their cultures, and life style is so diverse, so uniting them for fighting against a common cause, or making them understand a certain issue is close to impossibility. Everyone has their own perspectives and looks for the welfare of the state.


Most of the people, associate themselves closely with their STATE rather country and same is with the language, though Hindi is the national language, ofcourse most/ nearly all state people know Hindi, certain states like Tamil Nadu has boycotted it, when it was forced initially during 1930s.

Whenever an issue/ problem involving 2 or more states pop up, each state try to benefit themselves, irrespective of what’s the justice.  I don’t know when Indians who are known for their kindness, became so inhuman and insensitive to fellow human beings. Its so disgusting in some situations. For example, if you are about to travel in a public transport get prepared to be pushed all around by fellow standing passengers, scoldings from conductor, if you happen to be a girl it gets even worse.

I am really sad for this nature among the people, and no surprise Humanity is about to end soon.


Though U.S people are not happy with their government, they should be very happy because their government is doing a far far better job than the Indian counterpart.  More funds are allotted to R&D, comparatively less CORRUPT,  court trials take place in a fair manner, There is no hereditary monarchy, etc.,

The recent Devyani Khobragade’s arrest has only heightened the image of U.S in my mind and the belief I have on God and Karma. The crooked diplomat, was a illegal beneficiary of Adarsh housing flat, which was built to house Kargil war widows and Indian war veterans.  Several rules were bent, and lot of signatures were got in a haste and illegal manner during this project.  I wonder how and why Devyani was owning flats in it .


Questions over her integrity don’t stop there,  her selection as IFS officer itself was because of lot of backdoor work done by her powerful IAS father, who has lot of political connections.

So when the whole Indian government is crying high for U.S to drop charges, its looking so DISGUSTING AND DISTURBING for me as an Indian citizen, and also making me feel as if I am jailed in this merciless, truth-less, corrupt country.  😦 😦

Hoping for a big time CHANGE in government and people’s attitude. 🙂


And to conclude, I thank U.S sincerely for performing their duty despite the offence was committed by an  foreign diplomat.  Especially for holding the stance that charges wont be dropped off. . Salute U.S 🙂

Jai Hind!! . Justice for ALL

First Job

I think this what people call a Miracle.  The sequence of events which took place still makes me wonder how it happened. So let me rephrase them.

I am a final year Mechanical engineering student, of Anna University, Chennai. Like many of my fellow colleagues, I neither had a excellent GPA or desire to pursue higher studies immediately after under graduation and on the other hand I was really looking to work in an industry and apply the engineering skills I acquired and which will also support my family’s unsteady income. 

Unlike other colleges of Tamil Nadu, Anna University is the best in engineering, so we were assured of lot of companies visiting our campus and recruiting far more students than from other colleges.  But still the numbers weren’t as great as last year because of recession.  

Even of the IT giants such as Infosys, IBM, TCS, Wipro, CTS, Accenture,  only Infosys and Accenture came around this year. Sad part is they came at the beginning of the placement season when people were high on confidence and believed that they could land on a core job. So many didn’t take them seriously, and some wise farsighted serious people got placed in them. .

But then as expected the core companies slowly started to come in good numbers, While very few companies took 3 or 4 students, most of the companies stuck with 2. The strength is approximately 250, (Actually it should have been 150 at max, but because of few corrupt officials, over 100 additional students came in, by greasing various palms, typical Indian system 😦  )  ofcourse the eligible and willing people were around say 180 students.

Just imagine, the 2 people per company, it would take life long to get all students placed and never so many companies have visited our campus too. 

So the desperate students prepared hard and gave their best shot at each company, but most companies looked at just GPA and either they didn’t even bother to ask technical questions or the questions were away from area of interest. 9 pointers and the 8 pointers were getting placed quickly and 7 pointers faced the heat, and I was among them.

There were few companies which did a fair job by giving equal opportunities I would say, or purposely selected 7 pointers, to be precise, 2 companies L&T  and Carborundum Universal Ltd, each selected one seven pointer. And luckily I was one among them.

Carborundum Universal Ltd. is the one which trusted this first graduate 7 pointer.  Will give my best to them. When the results were announced, I just couldn’t believe it, After receiving offer letter, called my mom and said her, and went to Lord Ganesha temple, which was at the other end of the campus, and drove back to home. 

I believe God always helps us, the only thing he asks is to follow his principles and to love all, If one follows him, he will definitely look after us, though the going may seem difficult.  I saw it in my own eyes, after getting rejected by more than 20 companies, I was terribly depressed and feeling low,  and the Carborundum came like a breeze and relieved me. 

I wish my other friends who are trying hard to get placed soon, I know eventually they will, But I hope they get placed soon, so that they can enjoy the final days of college, without any pressure. 


An Engineer’s problem

Once upon a time in India, when every student who completed High school final examinations successfully with high marks opted for medicine and the others chose arts and literature. . . And SOME, SOME really interested or LUCKY ones got into engineering. . Then came the demand. . Which was huge as there were meager number of students, and the progress in manufacturing started to improve at good pace. .

And then came the ILLUSION or misconception that students who studied engineering got high pays and got settled in no time. .bla bla. .Which takes us to next stage, Many students joined engineering, not as many but somewhat higher than the usual. .And as the industrial growth and economy was also developing all along, was capable of absorbing the few more excess students. .

Thus our people, the Indian parents formed a strong opinion or believed that studying ENGINEERING = settled life, hefty salary package, and most importantly it takes just 4 years to study, unlike medicine where you have to study atleast 10 good years to earn as much as an engineer would do. .

So the craze was on and the rich goons and mafias understood the situation and started x, y, z engineering colleges, and pocketed the hard earned money of middle class parents who sent their sons to those colleges to study. That was the first step of quality degradation. In span of just few years, there were 500 colleges in just MY STATE, Only god knows how many are in whole India.

Quality of Engineering was eroding exponentially, and thus leaving many new fresh engineering graduates clueless, and most importantly JOBLESS. Thats when IT Information Technology kicked in, it absorbed engineers from all disciplines, like chemical, agricultural, mechanical, electrical, electronics, civil etc. . and trained them in some software and employed them..  As most of the clients were MNCs located abroad, the pay package was decent too. . 

But the crucial or more threatening problem is the engineering discipline which one majored went USELESS. . But no body seemed to care all the parents and students want was a decent job, Engineering degree, and settled life. . .

The even  worst thing was, this became a TREND. . Many of my school friends who were sharp, and intelligent are delighted and sharing statuses on facebook that they got placed in some IT concern. . I was happy that they got a job, But at the same time, I was deeply worried that, these guys deserve much more, and they could have achieved more. .

But sadly life is not all what we want or what we wish isn’t it. .    

Coming to my story. .

Me, Nearly going to complete Mechanical engineering, in the so called most privileged college in my state or one among the best in country, the The great CEG, Anna University.  

Being @ last semester, looking back at the 4 year course, It taught me much more than just Engineering. The IT giants came in and recruited bulk number of students in our campus too. .  

As I said earlier some bright minds of my class and college,  got slipped into it too. . . The core companies visiting the campus are few in number and the number of students they recruit are even few. . . Wishing to get placed soon. .. .

Atlast Its going to END

Well, I am talking about the semester examinations at the coll, though this time they have been little kind and easy on us, they can be dangerous, if not handled properly, So far so good, just one more to go, Industrial Management, God only knows why such a subject was invented in first place and why was it made compulsory for Mechanical Engineering students, I totally agree that management and organisation bla bla. is necessary, But i dont see the point in learning a subject for it.

Its got to take some common sense and some strategy to organize resources and people in a company. . Anyway I don want to mull about it anymore, I ve got to read those countless number of management terminologies and the hierarchies and structures and have to exactly replicate it in day after tomorrow’s examination.

Today’s Turbomachinery was pretty cool, as expected all the questions were easy and so low level, Gave a good shot, got  to see how it turned out, when results come out. .